1.8.13

Confessions



// I haven’t felt like blogging much recently…so I haven’t. Blogging seems so corporate lately – it’s all about the sponsers, the ads, the stats and scheduling posts weeks in advance to make sure readers  come back day after day. That’s okay if it makes you happy, but I want to blog because I love it; I don’t want it to become a chore. I’m sure I’ll get back into posting regularly soon. 

// Sometimes I don’t find motherhood as rewarding as I thought I would because I’m too task driven. It’s just who I am. I love to achieve, and in the past being at home has meant cleaning, organising, cooking, baking, planning, hosting, crafting…basically doing lots of things. It’s really easy to feel frustrated as a mum because I can’t do all those things to such a high standard anymore and a lot of my time is taken up feeling like I’m not achieving anything.
Except,  I am achieving spending time with my daughter, which is the most important job of all…I guess it’s just a relief to realise that I’m not a bad mother for sometimes feeling frustrated and for this season of life I need to realise that I do have a purpose even if I can’t see the results straight away. 

// Sometimes I wish that my mood wasn’t so affected by clutter. I hate mess. I can live in it but it makes me stressed. Why? A few years ago I successfully ignored this spare room (AKA dumping ground) disaster for six months:


Have I developed OCD?

// I make these cookies just so I can eat the dough. SO GOOD. 

// I’m not very good at making homemade meals for Ivy. I don’t have the motivation to make all her meals from scratch but I’m really paranoid about the junk in easy foods. Like sandwiches…shop bought bread has tons of fat and salt in, but my own bread goes stale so quickly and Ivy doesn’t like it. I’m trying so hard to make healthy finger foods for her but she seems to waste such a lot – any suggestions for quick lunches and healthy dinners?

// The other day we spotted some baby food that was priced at 42p when all the other flavours were £1.89. We bought every single packet. (I don't feel guilty - it was TESCO).

// I’m already Pinterest planning our new house even though we don’t know where we’re moving yet (only three months until we find out!).  It’s going to be DIY-tastic.

// Even though I love summer I’m really looking forward to autumn. I love the crisp cool mornings, snuggly jackets and the back to school feeling.

// I’m also ready to finish the summer holiday. I miss routine and all the term time events. Summer can be lonely. 

What do you have to confess today?

5 comments:

  1. Oh, I'm so with you on feeling guilty when it seems like nothing gets done with a little one. I have really been bringing this to the Lord over the last few days. I don't know about you, but for me, it comes back to I don't need to earn myself favour with God. I think he'll think I am a great wife and mother if I get all these things done, when in fact, if I sat on the floor all day with my son, God would be unchanging in His pleasure of me. Because of Jesus. Ugh. I need to remember this!

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  2. Moving - that's exciting!! For more schooling or will your husband be a pastor now?
    Hmm what have I to confess...I suppose that I have spent too much time reading blogs and fixing up my own today...ah well, it happens! But I also got chores done and spent time outside with my eight month old and enjoyed him so much so I'm giving myself a pat on the back :)

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  3. I confess I could have written this post myself! I love, love what Sarah said up there in her comment, though. How true. God is so unchanging, and it's not because of what we've done but rather what Christ has done for us that makes us achieved. Totally agree with your thoughts on blogging these days. I miss the blogging days of yore. After my 2nd child I really, really cut back on my blogging. Then the 3rd child came along and I just about quit! Some days I'm just so bone tired the thoughts in my head don't make sense, none the less the ones that make it out. : )

    ANYWAY. Bloglovin' said your blog was "similar to mine" and I'm so glad I clicked on over. I'll take that as a compliment!

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  4. I am also ready for summer to be finished. Summer for me is actually too much routine and being busy. I'm ready to relax and have a break.

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  5. I can't wait for fall too- I think it's my favorite season.. it used to be summer but its crazy how things change.

    I make cookies for the cookie dough too and I also found these vintage cookie cutters .. like I need a reason to make cookies :)

    Hope your having a wonderful Wednesday,

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