I hope you guys aren’t getting bored of all the Ivy related blog posts recently but as I have barely left the house in two weeks I haven’t really got anything else to write about!
**Ivy is still getting on really well. She’s feeding a bit more recently but we’re still getting a bit of sleep. She’ll be back up to her birth weight by the end of the week I expect.
**We’ve had my mum staying with us for a week and she’s been such a help doing all the cooking and cleaning for us. My house has never looked so sparkly! She went home on Tuesday so chaos ensues starting now!
**We’ve also had some lovely visitors, some of whom travelled a long way just to see Ivy which was really appreciated. It was great to catch up and for our friends and family to meet Ivy.
**Josh has gone back to college and university now although he’s still been around quite a bit. I guess we’ll start getting a bit more settled now as things go back to normal (what is normal?!), or is that just wishful thinking?
**You know those days when everything just seems to go wrong? Well this week has been full of them. I always knew that with a new-born things would take longer and be harder but this week has just been ridiculous.
**The main issue was when the back tyres on our car went flat and when we took the car in we ended up needing two new ones. Josh dropped the car at a garage across town, and then as soon as he got home they phoned and said he hadn’t left the key so he had to go all the way back. THEN, when he finally got home they phoned and said that they didn’t have the locking wheel nuts to take the tyres off and they couldn’t do anything without them. I was 90% sure they were in the car but they insisted they had looked everywhere so we turned our house upside down (with a screaming infant for company) but still couldn’t find them.
To cut a very long (and frustrating) story short Josh went and looked in the car and sure enough the nuts were right there all along. A job which should have taken thirty minutes took four days.
**It also doesn’t help that Josh has been ill with one thing or another since Ivy was born, not least with excruciating tooth ache which has been on-going for ages and is making him feel rubbish. He’s been putting off going to the dentist because he always reacts badly to the local anaesthetic but I think he’s given in and is booking an emergency appointment today. I just hope he doesn’t have a fainting attack.
**I know that birth is meant to be a miracle of new life, but I never realised how completely un-glamorous having a baby would be. You can’t keep much dignity during labour or when people come to check you over.
I realise that it’s completely normal to feel overwhelmed and sad sometimes with all my hormones going crazy but I’m just fed up of hurting everywhere and having ailments that I never even considered! I just feel like I want my body back and feel normal.
I’m also finding feeding quite painful at times which is really disheartening, especially at night. The adrenalin that kept me going for the first days has worn off and it’s so difficult to drag myself out of bed especially when I’m dreading the pain.
**I think I’m getting a bit of cabin fever as well so any visitors would be welcome!
**I don’t want to sound really down because motherhood is amazing and I feel so privileged and actually, today after 8 ½ hours sleep (wooot!) I feel a lot more positive , but I also want to keep it real and things aren’t all hearts and flowers in parenthood. I just feel like a lot of things are cropping up to steal our joy but I’m trying to keep positive and just take one day at a time.