5.7.12

From Antenatal to Accident and Emergency

Thank you to everyone who prayed for us today. We really appreciated it more than I can ever express through words.
I thought I’d just do a really quick update on here as it’s the easiest way to let you know what’s going on.
Firstly…what happened?
Josh and I were at the hospital this morning for a routine maternity appointment when Josh had a faint/seizure while we were in the room having the meeting with the midwife. He didn’t shake or anything, but as he’s had fits as a child he said that he felt like he’d had a fit rather than just passed out (he had an aura and felt really groggy when he woke up).
Normally he comes round quite quickly after fit but this time he was feeling really ill and couldn’t move off the ground. After 45minutes on the midwife’s floor he was still completely out of it (feeling dizzy, sick, slurring his words) so they moved him to A&E and we ended up being there for hours while they did loads of tests.
We finally got home about 5pm and although he’s still feeling dizzy and tired Josh is feeling much better than he was. It’s so frustrating because even though he’s been through load of these episodes during his life there is still nothing confirmed wrong with him. At some points it’s been epilepsy, other doctors have said not…it’s all so up in the air. They weren’t even sure whether to count it as a seizure or a faint today because not all the symptoms of a seizure were there.
Anyway, he’s been referred to the ‘first-fit’ clinic and even though he’s had fits before they will treat it as if this was the first one and he’ll have to have all the horrid brain tests and things and hopefully we’ll get some answers. He can’t drive until he’s had his appointment so I need to get put on the insurance on our car.
Thanks to all the sweet people who were asking how I am today too. To be honest I’m feeling pretty terrible. It’s horrible seeing someone you love ill and being wheeled around a hospital totally out of it. I realised today how much I rely on Josh – he’s my best friend and the one I run to when things are hard, he looks after us and does the driving and generally sorts things out so it’s horrid when he’s the one that’s totally helpless and out of control.
There’s some other stressful life stuff going on as well at the moment and I’ve got a million ‘what-ifs’ flying around my head and it’s all quite overwhelming. It’s hard being pregnant too because I’m very aware that I can’t just curl up in a ball and ignore what’s going on and eat six bars of chocolate – I need to make sure I’m looking after my body, keeping calm and eating well for her.
I’m glad that we have God there with us all the time and that he hears the cry of our hearts even when we’re overwhelmed by it all.
Some things I’m really thankful to God for:
1. It happened at a hospital – what better place?! We had professionals around all the time who could take control.
2. A faithful friend who dropped everything to come and help and pick us up from the hospital.
3. All the wonderful people who prayed for us and sent us encouraging texts. It was much appreciated to feel your love when I was feeling lonely in cubicles.
4. We didn’t park in the hospital car park. Just by “chance” we decided to park in our church car park at the last moment which means we can leave the car there until Josh is feeling better and we can sort out insurance to cover me to drive it. Parking at the hospital is ridiculously expensive and it would have been another stress to try and deal with as it on top of everything else.
Further things to pray for:
1. That Josh could re-cover quickly and be healed from these fits.
2.  That the appointment for the referral would come through quickly and they’ll be able to find out what’s going on.
It would be so amazing if they didn’t count it as a fit and so Josh wasn’t banned from driving. I really hate driving and don’t really drive at all and with my pregnancy coming on and all the stuff happening in the next few months it just feels totally overwhelming that I might end up being the sole driver.
3. For peace and rest. We feel worn out and stressed at the moment and I know it’ll take a few days to recover from feeling horrid. I want to trust God that it’s all in his hands and whatever the outcome.
Thanks so much friends. You’re all so appreciated. If there is anything we can pray for you for then just let us know xx
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Psalm 46: 10-11

8 comments:

  1. Oh my, that's scary! Praying for him, and that they can figure out what's going on!

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  2. thinking and praying for you both - I think you and the little one could both do with a bar of chocolate right now!!!
    ( though Keith says not 6!!!)
    love From us both
    su and keith

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  3. Wow! Definitely praying for you & your hubby! That is scary!

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  4. My goodness, what a scary episode! I agree with you - it couldn't have happened it a better place. And I know it's all a huge weight on your shoulders, but maybe it's better it happened now instead of after the baby's born? Imagine having to deal with all of that with a newborn in tow as well!

    You two are obviously a great source of support for each other, and I'm sure that, as much as you doubt yourself, Josh is enormously grateful that you were (and will continue to be) there for him throughout.

    And I agree - one consolation chocolate bar won't hurt ;)

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  5. Love you - praying for Jesus' protection, love and peace and provision over you and Josh. LOVE YOU BOTH. Take it easy xxxx

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  6. Oh wow! What a crazy day! Will definitely pray for you, husband and baby on the way.

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  7. Oh no! I'm sorry to hear about this. I'm praying for you.

    I know it wont be much consolation, but you two are an inspiration; it's awesome that you can list things to be thankful for. It's so easy in these scary and frustrating times to just look at the negatives, so it's amazing that you can use it as an opportunity for worship. Thank you for being a source of encouragement and a role model to us in all this!

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  8. WOW! I'm sorry to be just catching up and seeing this now. I'll keep you guys in my prayers. It's so good to see how God blessed you and was there with you the whole time you were going through this episode. It's easy to get bogged down with the what-ifs and the why did this happen now? So glad that you can keep God in focused through this. I agree with the previous comment that said you totally should eat some chocolate now. Now's the perfect time!!!! :)

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