The one where she rants...

Today I feel weird.
We’re heading back to Aber this weekend. We’ve got to pack our house up to move.
We’ve got a few more things planned in the coming 2 weeks, but our summer of fun is nearly over.
We have had the best, best, best time. It’s been better than we could have ever imagined.
But soon we have to go back to reality.
I got an email today about some jobs in Cardiff. I don’t know whether to apply.
Should I or shouldn’t I?
I don’t want to. I just feel like sticking my head under a pillow and hiding from the world.
Applying for jobs means that I have to face living in a new place, with new people. Finding my way round a new area. UGHHHHHH.
I don’t want to apply for these jobs, but I don’t know if that’s because
It’s scary
It’s easier to stay at home
I’m lazy
It’s not the right job for me
However I feel like I should apply for the jobs because well, everyone has to have a job don’t they? I can’t just sit at home and do nothing just because it’s easier. We’re not made for that.
Right? What do you think?
I’ve posted about fear before. Sometimes it can take over everything.

I'm fearful of applying for the jobs because I feel like I don't really want them, but I'm also fearful of not applying for them because in the current climate all jobs are super competitive and I don't want to waste an opportunity.
Maybe I should just apply and see what happens, but UGH!

I need to take a step back, breathe, pray, listen and know that God has the best plan. But I also need to be willing to grasp the nettle and do things that are scary.
Please pray for us?
Thanks for listening to my personal pep-talk.
Happy Friday!
P.S. I won a photo competition this week. Woot!

and then, she {snapped}


  1. Yes, I feel the same way with those situations.
    I think it's scary. And yes, it's definitely "easier" to just stay at home, but you have to think about what is going to make you happy in the long term.

  2. Sounds like the old saying "Want to make God laugh, make a plan!"
    It will all work out!
    Love your photos!
    Kerry at housetalkn.blogspot.com

  3. Congratualtion on the win! Good luck with making your decision. I know exactly what you're going through. The part that scares me the most is just putting together a resume after all these years of staying home with the kids.

  4. Girl, I'm right there with you! I know it's scarry to step out on faith. Always remember that His grace is sufficient! He can give you the courage to face these new experiences :) I will be praying that He gives you a great new direction to serve!

  5. OH HUG, HUG, HUG, HUG!!!!!!!!!!

    Doing the whole CHANGE thing is really hard, isn't it? You laid all your thoughts out in this post just as I would have been thinking them. So many "What Ifs..." I'll keep you in my prayers.

    Congrats on the photo competition! That's awesome. I always look forward to your pictures. :)

  6. How about you applying, regardless, and Someone Else deciding whether you get them?

  7. We all get those moments - get a big cuppa tea, sit down and apply and then reward yourself by doing something fun. I love reward systems. It'll be ok. God will provide :)

  8. Hey thanks for the comment :)

    My thoughts are go for the jobs - no harm to be done. It's not a commitment so no need to panic about it. See how they go and decide from there.

    And if things are getting you down - go see Bridemaids!

  9. Congratulations on winning the photo competition, from what I've seen you are very talented. I've moved a lot in the past 3 years or so and I've experienced every one of those emotions. I will pray for you guys.

  10. Go for the job! I'm currently unemployed and feel like a total loser most days. I've applied, but the economy where I live in terrible. I hope your move goes easy.

    Marla @ www.blueskiesphotoblog.com

  11. Congrats on the win! I can totally relate how you feel about your job hunt. I don't mind the application process all that much, for me it's the interviews that I loathe. I think the let's-do-it-and-see-what-happens attitude is the best way forward in this case, that way you don't miss out on chances. Who knows, you might really like one of the working environments if they invite you for an interview.